I find myself only thirteen days into 2022 in a funk. Motherhood sucks right now. My self-care interventions aren’t really working. I can feel a difference within myself. My daughter is going through sleep regression, separation anxiety, and teething all at once. Then there’s the challenges of work and personal relationships. Stress, feeling overwhelmed, and anxiety never seem to be far from me lately. It seems like the moment I overcome and address one thing, five more things appear. There never seems to be enough time in the day and always too many tasks to complete.
Motherhood just sucks right now.
I have had off days prior to motherhood but this is different. Before if I were having an off day I could be alone, weather the storm, and move on. I have a child to take care of. I can’t be alone for extended periods of time. It’s not fair to impose my negative energy on my child. Plus, if I am being honest, sometimes being a mother is the cause of my off days.
I can’t escape me or motherhood.
Sometimes motherhood sucks. There are days my child cries for what seems like an eternity. Other times she won’t go to sleep or won’t et me put her down without throwing a fit. Sometimes I cry and feel alone in my feelings. Let me be honest: motherhood is the most difficult thing I’ve ever done. It’s not always sunshine and rainbows. It can be really hard. My hope is that when motherhood sucks I continue to have support of family, friends, and even complete strangers. I hope that for any mom you have the same.
I know this funk won’t last forever. My off days don’t define my motherhood and I am not a bad mom because of them.